When all you’ve ever loved is taken from you,what is left but pain and despair?

I would give anything to see them again,

I’ve already given so much.

At the end of the world I was humanity’s last hope,

I took them into the ark as I twisted the dagger in their planet.

These ignorant ingrates didn’t deserve to live.

I will avenge my family, I shall have my revenge.



Just wanted to share a little bit of my writing with you all. Check out the beginning of my untitled story…

The torches flickered in their holders as the wind did its best to extinguish their flame. The air hung heavy around the village, perfumed with kerosene and the smell of decay. 

A wild howl ripped through the muted night. The best stalked the shadows around the border of the colony, waiting, rancid breath exiting it’s mouth in hurried puffs. It’s prey, the girl, the one, was just out of reach, close enough to taste. How he wanted to rip and tear at the soft flesh. A low growl emitted from its muzzle, and it sat down in the thin layer of snow that was forming. It could wait.

Startled Alexis sat up straight in her bed, ice rippling down her spine. It was near. Without any sign that she had just woken from a deep sleep, she leapt from her small bed and onto her feet. Eyes wide, nostrils flared, searching for signs of danger. Every standing nerve taut, at attention. Wild.

Her instincts told her to move, but her body was frozen in place. Searching for the slightest sign. The torches flickered and dimmed throwing eerie shadows against the walls. They moved and danced around the room, then all at once a gust of wind extinguished the flame. Alexis stood alone, naked, in complete darkness.

Hope your enjoyed.



Re-hinging me

Hey readers, sorry it’s been so long since my last post. I’ve been busy with work, family, friends and my new mission of putting myself and my health on the right track.

Sooo, I’ve been eating healthy and exercising daily for the past nine weeks…

See my first progress pic below… 

I’d like to say that I am feeling amazing, except for the fact my whole body hurts, I have huge cravings to smother myself in cheesecake and other foods, but I think the benefits outweigh those small negatives and it’s a small price to pay for a healthy mind and body.

Some benefits I’m already seeing is that my skin is clearing up, I’m not eating any junk food like I was (I would eat my way through a packet of potato chips in one sitting and drink up to two litres of soft drink a day).  I’ve lost a lot of centimetres off my waist, legs, arms and such. My fitness levels are rising, I am now able to run further than I ever have before, I don’t feel out of breath when singinf/dancing with my story time kids and I’m sure there are other things too.  
My whole life I’ve struggled with my weight and the comments that I received from people around me, and even complete strangers. I once had a client comment about how much weight I’d gained. Yeah I know. Rude!!! All my life I had never  gotten any compliments about my weight. Now that i am, I honestly don’t know how to take it. I’m so grateful to everyone who’ve made positive comments. Thank you. 

I’m taking this journey, for myself, my family and my future. I’m in the process of re-hinging my life, I never expect that it or I will be perfect, but I will do my absolute best to make it that way. 




Dramatic Readings…

A few months ago I was directed by a friend to view a dramatic reading of the harry potter fan fiction titled ‘My Immortal.’
Okay…If you don’t have any idea what a fan fiction is allow me to explain.

A fan fiction is where the author takes the characters and plot of an existing story and adds to or expands the story…mmhmm.
So the author of this particular fan fiction decided that the story should become influenced by Goth culture…it’s main character Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way sometimes spelt Enobe is a goth and an interesting character…lol. Please just take the time and read the into to the story for me… https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6829556/2/My-Immortal

So, after attempting to read this wonderful piece of literary prose my friend directed me to the dramatic reading of the same title on youtube… you can watch it here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHEQ0CBQyas
I adore the way the creator of this gives an intro, you can tell she is struggling not to giggle. I loved the dramatic reading and thus set out to create my own *looks around shiftily* off I went through the internets looking for fanfics to use (my google search was Horrible Fan Fiction) hahaha.

I found one and am happy to say it is the best fan fic i’ve come across yet. This is what the internet was made for people.
It’s called…wait for it

‘The Irresistible Jerk – Harry Styles’

You can read that one here… http://www.quotev.com/story/3665587/The-Irresistible-Jerk-Harry-Styles/
In my next post I will upload the first part of the dramatic reading that I created and y’all can tell me if you like it. lol.

Well that’s it for me.
I’ll be back!! 😉


the search for female contraception…and my red face.

In my line of work, I am a public serving, book shelving, children’s and youth herding, computer assisting Librarian in a small country town. Sometimes after dealing with the public you can come away thinking why the heck did you just share that information with me.

I got this feeling the other day when one of our more eccentric clients decided to share a story with me…

She approached the counter, ‘well,’ she begins, ‘I’ve just been on the most wonderful first date.’
‘Thats lovely,’ I respond.
‘Yes, yes, very handsome,’ she says gesturing to the air flapping her hands around animatedly.
She looks both ways and comes in close to the bench, ‘you know what,’ she says ‘I’m quite randy.’

At this point I realise where the conversation is heading and remain calm, I can feel the heat rising in my cheeks. She continues…

‘You know what? I went in search of female condoms and you know what? There are no chemists in this town that stock them…and I told them what for and let them know my feelings on the subject, DISGRACEFUL.’ she says.

The tirade lasts for no more than two or three minutes, but for me it felt like an eternity. Woah.

She continues for a bit longer mentioning sexism, small country towns and women’s rights etc before actually collecting her items and leaving…

I came away from that conversation asking myself why, why would someone choose to share that kind of information with me. It was an eye opener and I’m sure there will be numerous conversations I will find awkward in the future…


becoming unhinged

So I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and a lot of self reflection…something I don’t do often as I’m usually doing too many things at once to realise I need to slow down.

So I was thinking, have I changed through this crazy journey called life? To find the answer I went in search of my old diaries…I kept a journal at the age of sixteen for an entire year and then again at nineteen.

I thought to myself while at work the other day, what would it be like to have kept a diary entry for every day of my life…would that have helped me remember those Mondays that I cannot picture for the life of me??

It occurs to me that keeping a diary was a great way to capture those intensely emotional moments in my life that I felt at that time I could not share with anyone.

Reading though those pages I was surprised at the level of insecurity, self doubt, drug abuse, drinking, love and a constantly reoccurring theme sex.

All of those things have changed. I am today a very self confident, clean living, loved up family man. Yes I am still protective of myself, but I can see a striking difference between the boy that I was and the man that I have become.

The decisions that have lead me to this life, with my wife Karly and daughter Macy are ones that I am proud of and ones that have made me insanely happily unhinged.

I’ve never been fully honest with anyone about myself, with this blog I intend to bring the barriers down that I always hold up around myself. If there is anything I feel like writing about…I will. I really don’t care what people think of me any more. There is more to life than the opinions of others…and tbh I have better things to worry about in my life.

This is the end of my first blog post, I hope you enjoyed it. I will be posting more in the upcoming weeks. 😀